I love when my family is together.
There is nothing like an almost full house.
I wake up knowing bedrooms are warm with silent breathing.
I love holidays.
I'm that mom who decorates and cooks and bakes
and enjoys every moment.
It's Thanksgiving.
Bedroom doors are opening.
Low conversations can be heard in the background.
Turkey aroma fills our house -
I am thankful.
I am thankful for my husband (who is still sleeping,)
for my children.
These are the greatest treasures in my life.
I love the memories we share -
I think about Caleb.
I smile.
I cry.
There is sweet sorrow to the memories.
He was part of years and years of Thanksgivings
and times, like -
'Mom, I'm hungry! When are we going to eat...'
when I thought the turkey was completely thawed but no, it wasn't, and it still needs to cook some more (I think we ate like at 4:30.)
Or the time when Caleb came home with the turkey he shot -
we had two turkeys that year.
All the times of sitting around the table passing the green bean casserole, and mashed potatoes....
Silent eating that would break into laughing and joking and listening to Caleb's stories.
I sigh.
I cry.
I miss him so much.
We all do.
I bought a candle in a glass container.
The inscription on it - "The Best Is Yet To Come."
I didn't really think too much about it
till this morning when I saw it on the counter.
It was like Caleb was whispering -
Yes, Mom. Enjoy this day with the family, and tell everybody I love 'em.
Oh,
I know it's hard for you.
I know you all miss me.
But, remember -
this world isn't all there is.
You're all on this journey and one day -
yes, one day we will all be together.
Remember Mom,
the best is yet to come.
With that thought, I begin my day.
The best times here are being with my family.
We are blessed.
Today, Thanksgiving,
we will sit around the table, and pass the green bean casserole and mashed potatoes.
There will be a short silence as we pray and eat, and then we will break into conversation and laughter.
There will probably be some Caleb stories.
There will be a candle lit for Caleb because his life and light are always with us.
I baste the turkey in the roaster -
the roaster Caleb and Collen gave me for Christmas
not that long ago.
Yes. I will enjoy today, - these are the best days here with my family.
I will also remember -
The Best Is Yet To Come .
It helps to know -
that one day we will all be together and will have the biggest, and best Thanksgiving feast ever, forever!
Selah.
