I googled tomorrow and what did I get?
A definition.
The day after today.
Not much.
My life is a series of minutes that move and stand still.
My life is full of surprises,
and I don't know's.
It's crazy, this walk I'm on.
You just never know what is going to upset the apple cart and send apples
scattering all over.
I'd try to pick them up but, they usually scatter so far and wide, I sit in amazement
that it happened at all.
Life is not the same.
I've said that before, but it never ceases to surprise, overwhelm and knock me
off my feet.
New ideas, new directions are not small potatoes.
I have been content to be in my own little corner in my own little house,
and when I'm asked to step out of this now familiar lifestyle,
it is huge.
How did I know that the mention of doing something new would upset my life like this?
I'm content living in my corner of the world...anything new is huge.
I started crying at the aspect of adding anything new to my life.
It's like I'm moving away...but I'm not.
I will never leave my son behind.
I will take Caleb with me wherever I go, whatever I do.
It's scary. I'll just say it, because it is.
I am not the person I was.
I don't know this person, and it's like I'm in a foreign land.
Maybe I did things in the past, but this person has never
done this - whatever it is.
It's a whole new experience, whatever it is.
I was unprepared for the rush of emotions that flooded my being.
I'm unfamiliar with me.
I'm unfamiliar with life as it is.
I'm unfamiliar with most everything.
