My Grief Journey/Rubberband Time

February 22, 2014
I want to pull time back like a giant rubber band, and just hold it off a while longer -
so a year doesn't come -
(I can't believe it's almost been a year. It's heart-ripping new everyday)
so Caleb's birthday is still in the future.
(hard to think of the day of his birth without him on this earth.)

I can't believe it's almost been a year.
It is still so surreal, so hard to wrap my mind around it.
The hurt, the separation is so difficult.
Hard to explain.

I know the day will be here in just three days.
The birth date of my son, Caleb.
It breaks my heart that he won't be here, and yet....
the day he entered this world he impacted life like no one else.
He was born with a mission.
I know, I was there.
He was special born.
God had a specific plan for his life, and he
started living that plan, even before he let out that first cry.

Somehow...we will get through this.
There is One who holds us close, and gives us strength.
He's never failed us yet.
Selah.